Releasing new work across my fanfiction platforms is easy. Releasing work across the publishing world is tough. I tend to cower and get scared a lot because of who I am. I am getting a lot more comfortable though. I think letting certain aspects go really helped in the pursuit of what I wanted to do, as well as not being afraid to let certain aspects in.
I was going to release underneath a new pen name, but so much has been happening, even that seems daunting. It’s best to stay under Melanie Ray for everything, to avoid confusion in all directions. I don’t mind that my free writing and non-free writing and journaling are going to mix. I honestly should let them because keeping up will get increasingly difficult.
I used to have all day and every day to write whenever I wanted, but now I have a great responsibility. Even though it isn’t a ‘job’, it is an important position I can’t shirk. My daughter is beginning virtual school and for the last two weeks I’ve homeschooled her (because her date of acceptance wasn’t close enough to the date of release of her first school.) With virtual, I will have to stay even more adamant to watching over her and the house. (Thank goodness I don’t cook now.)
This means that things like publishing aren’t something I can just go charge toward with full speed, nor do I have deep pockets for the promotion to make much happen with it. However? I love writing, so instead what I do, is I pay closer attention to having fun with the publishing side, just like I do my fanfiction.
I am writing and rewriting things I love, in a way that means something to me. This means that some of my books are changing from when they were published. (Out of Print now for some time.) Some will hardly change any except by name. Slightest cover changes. Others will change a ton. And? I won’t be scared of that anymore.
I have opened myself up to different platforms, different writing categories, and I’ve trudged my way through biases on all sides of the writing angles. I feel content where I am at. If this were a writing college, I would say I major in fanfiction and minor in original. I have plans for my original work too for the site, and some bold plans I hope are appreciated further on.
This site is my site. Before school, after school and definitely Saturdays and Sundays. No matter what I write, I write. Original is oftentimes slow ( I have to pay editors, which means I have to borrow from my husband, which means I have to wait to make things happen longer than others. It’s a give and take.) The first ones released will be fast because they’ve been edited before.
I am working a lot harder on my fanfiction variety too now. If you haven’t noticed, I’ve strolled out of my usual areas (or came back to some old ones) and I am exploring and distributing my work more widely. I have done this equal distribution on and off, but it always falls off kilter. Here is Why.
I am going to be reviewing work on the site, but not your typical work and not often. (I would rather write most times). When I say work I mean movies, videos, graphic novels, novels, games, and a consortium of similar things. I’m not interested in every little thing, I am very particular about my subjects, and I want to concentrate on the types of things I work on or enjoy. Whether it is 90’s or brand new.
I just want to have fun with my site. Fun with my books. Fun with my publishing. I know I will never reach any status of making a living now that things have changed so aggressively, but I still love it. I accept many things about myself. About who I am. That self actualization I’ve reached?
It means that I’ve let go of what could happen or should happen. I am more interested in the present, in the now, and what makes me and all of my audiences more happy.